Mile Markers

There are so many things that seem to be markers, or bright flashing red lights, denoting the changes that are happening. I have been happily seeing someone for a while. In the last couple months Pongo began seeing someone as well. Two very concrete "things" that make the permanency of the situation even more real. Not just for me, not just for Pongo, but for our little people as well.

Pongo and I had a phone conversation in which he was catching me up on the continued lack of progress in Dory and Nemo's current living/schooling/visitation proceedings, as well as the obvious effect it was beginning to take on the kids. Bless Nemo's good natured heart but he is quickly becoming an unruly preteen that got in trouble at school 18 times in the last quarter alone. My heart just hurts for him. Through out this conversation I told Pongo that I really truly feel like we have not completely damaged Flick and Dot. We did what needed to be done in mostly the best way we knew how. I would definitely change many things if I could but I can't. Pongo piped up at that point and began telling me that Flick had been very needy towards him lately, requesting cuddle time on the couch and just generally wanting to be WITH him. I had to bite my tongue. Pongo doesn't see the affect his new relationship is having on the kids. She is very much so involved in their lives and is simply around much of the time they are with their father, therefor sharing their time with their father with her now as well. So they are going to have to adjust again, to a new new normal (bc i'm relatively sure she's here for the next long haul). Luckily I had been waiting until I felt the kids were ready to integrate my relationship into their lives and now have the ability to lesson the change on my part just a little more to allow them time to process what is going on.

There is also another exciting mile marker coming up as well! My princess Dot turns 3 in a few more days! I had one of those sappy mommy moments just a week or so ago when she said something and when I looked at her to respond I saw that my baby had grown up on me! That shit sneaks up on you! A trip to grandma and grandpa's is on tap for the weekend and birthday celebrations will be had. Complete with the cake of course :) I'll be sure to not wait months to post pictures of it!