What a fly on the wall would have heard....

As I was heading to bed last night I couldn't help but giggle over the many things that came out of my mouth last night.

-Come to Mom and Pop's. Mom can not find the pot. Pop found the pot. The pot was on top.
-Where's the lid to the kitchen trash can!?!?
-Don't dump water on your sisters head!
-If gas cost 1.499, and gas prices are rounded to the nearest thousandth, how much did gas increase if it now cost 1.589?
-You need to eat REAL food before you can have ice cream.
-Please keep the water IN the bathtub!
-What exploded in your backpack?
-Where's your diaper!?!?!

Quiet on the home front

Things have been relatively quiet on the home front regarding Cruella. Not so quiet regarding Pongo and myself. We have decided to sell our house as that is the main thing (aside from the kids duh!) tying us together. We're basically just cohabiting now. Although that's not working real well for either of us. Pongo has become increasing jealous of anyone and everyone I speak to that he doesn't know. I've never known him to be possessive but i'm seeing a new unfortunate side :(

The kids had a fabulous Halloween. I decked everyone out and trick-or-treating we went. Flick and Dot crashed on the way home but a good time was had by all!

Nemo is done with football and confided in me that he was really excited that it was over and that he doesn't really want to play basketball. I told him he's going to have to make his voice be heard but that we'll support him in whatever he needs. Dory has been exceptionally needy and bossy lately. I'm sure that as much as Pongo and I have tried to conceal the rough waters btwn us the kids are sensing some of it and that may be the cause for most of her outbursts.

We have not told the kids of the (what looks to be impending) separation due to the fact that in this market it may very well take us quite a while to sell the house. And the last thing I want is for them to have this hanging over their heads for a year, just waiting for the other shoe to drop. So we shove on. With a smile on our faces.

Hope everyone had a great Halloween!

Quiet on the home front

Mommy

Some mom's will never hear that word said to them by the child they love so much. There are Daddies that will never have the joy of tossing their child in the air to catch them as the giggles ring through the house. Remember those presious souls lost to soon but loved indefinitally.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

Mother of the year

I think I've mentioned a good friend of mine who i work with that has a psycho exwife of his own.

He came back after lunch and told me that PEW's father died. He was waiting on a call from his 15 year old daughter to tell him how is 11 year old son took the news. He was really close to his grandfather and my friend was very worried how he would take the news. His daughter texted him and said that his son was doing okay. 15 minutes later his daughter calls. I watched a 6foot something 280lb man crumble. I could see the hurt that spread across his face as he was violently shaken from the inside out and reminded that he can't protect his kids from everything. His daughter was calling because his son was now not talking to anyone and hadn't said anything. Why.....because their mother picked them up from school and told them their grandfather passed away. Then proceeded to take them to her parent's house. They walked in the front door of the house, not being prepared for or knowing what they were about to see, walked straight into their grandfathers body, still laying on the floor where he died.

Why would you do this to kids. We agonized for days trying to decided if we wanted Nemo and Dory to go to Pongo's father's funeral because it was going to be open casket and we didn't know how it would affect them to see his body. Then when we decided to take them we agonized again over whether or not to allow them to go up to the casket. Never in a MILLION years would I dream of walking my children, unknowing, into the house where their grandfather was still laying, dead.

Sometimes all you need is a little support....

...and it can really hurt when you don't get it.


This is nothing I wasn't expecting but it still hurt. My heart is so full of concern for everyone else involved that I don't have the strength to worry about myself but I sure wish that there was someone who could find the strength to hurt for me.

An email from my mom......

Just Me:)—Your dad and I are not sure we will be able to come up this weekend after the bombshell you dropped on us last night. We really want to see you, Pongo and the kids and be there to celebrate Flick's birthday but we just aren’t sure we can do it considering what is going on. We are totally shocked and NEVER thought we would hear the words you said last night – “Pongo and I have decided to separate.” Why? What is so terrible that you can’t work through it together? Not only are we in shock, we don’t understand what could have gone so terribly wrong after 4 yrs. of marriage. What has caused you to feel that you need to rip your family apart? There are 4 precious children involved here who are the innocent ones. What in the world will this do to Nemo? He has come so far since you have been a part of his life. I am positive he will revert to his “old problem” that he has worked hard to stop. And what about Dory? She loves doing all that girlie stuff with you. You have been a huge influence in both of those kids’ lives. And then there is Flick & Dot. How can the 2 of you do this to them?
They have the right to grow up in a 2 parent family. You and Pongo were both given that opportunity – you need to give it to them! How can you just rip all this apart and throw it away? We just don’t understand how 2 adults can do this to the 4 children involved. Your dad and I have been married for 31 yr. There were years that were very tough, but we never gave up on each other. Instead of separating, you need to concentrate on working on whatever is causing the 2 of you to split and fix it. You made a commitment to each other. You guys can work through it – if you want to. You have a huge amount at stake here – your 4 children. Don’t separate ---please, please, please!!!!!!! The 2 of you need to do some heavy soul searching. Put your marriage first for the sake of your children!!
Please call us this evening to talk. Mom

Change of Direction

I hope that as I walk this road God gives me the strength I need and allows me to take all I've learned during my journey and use that knowledge to grow as a person.

I've chosen my path and have far more important things to worry about then myself right now. Cruella and Pongo are the least of my worries since there are 4 little souls I have to put before all else.